Blog Post Title Three
As a creative, I’m familiar with the feeling of being in the flow. When I’m in that state, I witness myself effortlessly seeing the vision, knowing what platform to create it in, watching my eyes move along the screen almost instantaneously indicating to my hands to move the cursor, feeling my fingers dance along the keyboard, the immediate response of the letters forming words or creating shapes, and then watching my body lean in towards the screen with my head moving left to right in hopes of seeing just the right thing. I sometimes feel like a thief with its right ear pressed to the safe door, deeply listening for the click of selecting the right number and the success that’s felt as each piece falls into place. There is a deep sense of pleasure felt in my body knowing that as I implement the wisdom of my experience to create efficiency, there are surprising moments that sometimes open up a new challenge, a new piece of the puzzle. It can feel like the Universe testing me and giving me an opportunity to up-level my skills and experience my proficiency or mastery.
I’m lost in time. Nothing else matters but this. It’s this thing I’m in creating, resolving or learning is what I’m here for and there’s no where else that I’m supposed to be.
Having experienced this state countless times has raised my level of expectations and awareness of when trying to create with my mind or what I think I have planned that will possibly put me on the path to what I want. I continue to expand my level of awareness of when I find myself in distraction and transference. My Perspective is Possibilities - not probability. I’m Hope motivated - not Guilt Motivated. What does this look like in action?
When wanting to create or get things done out of fear for what might happen so therefore I better fix this for myself, I’m calculating what PROBABLY might happen so I’ll GUILT myself into doing the thing to avoid this. Do I feel the experience of flow? Nope. As I set myself up to do that thing, the energy isn’t there. I feel strained. I feel like I’m moving a heavy boulder up a very steep hill. I’ve noticed that the more that I try to make it happen, I feel irritated with myself, the task feels daunting, if it’s for someone else I start to resent them and myself for saying “yes” to this thing and next thing I know I’m spiraling into a situation that I don’t even want to be with me. I’ve found myself in this pattern enough times that I’ve learned to let it go and explore where my energy flows like water.
More often than not, the energy flows towards something that I’ve been thinking about doing or towards something new. The more I practice surrendering to this, the less judgement I have towards the unexpected activity. It’s been an exercise in reminding myself that it will work itself out because the possibilities are endless.
I continue to prefer being in that energetic flow than struggling in bitterness and resentment. What would you choose?
